"Grandma, what if all the good times are already behind me?" - Pugsley Addams
That's life kid. You lose the things you love." - Grandma Addams
Come on, people. Really? I absolutely refuse to believe this kind of nihilist philosophy. Its just insane. There must be some chance for the redemption of things lost. Even Milton wrote Paradise Regained...and while titles dont always tell the whole story - I think he means for us (as people) to focus on the chance to make everything better again.
Now, I will go so far as to say, like trips to Narnia, revisitations of the past happen differently every time. I have this sneaking suspicion that karma is trying to tell me my recent re-discovery of someone isn't going to be what I expect.
Ah, to hell with it. I'm still going to hope for a little redemption in the face of being a huge spazz fuckup.
Looks like a good chance of a storm today. Keep your eyes (and your heart) looking up even though it may not work out.
Yes, Caprice. I still agree with what you said. I cant help it.
"You can never go home again, Oatman... but I guess you can shop there." John Cusack as Martin Q. Blank in "Grosse Point Blank".
ReplyDeleteThere's a bit of truth to that statement, I think.
You *could* go and do all of the crazy things you did when you were younger. You might find some of the extreme rush or enjoyment, but I don't know that it would be the same. To me, that would be a sign to go and find new things to do and new people to be with.
...but that's me.
Bringing people from your past and into your present is a scary prospect for me. I've learned to be happy with the memories of people and what they were to my life so long ago...as compared to the realization that people change, and leaving those people in your past is often much easier than trying to integrate them in to my present life.
That's not the case with you. It's been nothing but a joy seeing you again. :)
You might be a spazz, but you're far from being a fuck-up. I think that designation is reserved for guys like me, honestly.
Hope this goes well for you.
-jimi