One right after the other

First of all, my apologies for my lack of posting. In the first place, Ive been a little under the weather and in the second, Ive felt a lack of ability to post anything worth reading.

On the weather end of things, there have been three systems in the Atlantic Basin to talk about for over a week...and as one moved on to the north and became extratropical; another system rolled off the coast of Africa; one right after the other.

Since I usually draw a parallel to me from that scenario, Ill say this. Just as Earl began to swirl out in the ocean, a friend I havent seen in nearly 14 years dropped back onto the scene. I couldn't be happier about it. I know I posted several weeks back about Serendipity - finding something you needed right under your nose that you didnt see before. Well, while there are a great many people out there that I love and cherish - this one was almost like an Event One. Lets call this one Event Zero. What makes Event Zero different is that it makes me feel like I did in my late teens - really ready to do something daring. I never did because I worried about the consequences. Now, Im happy to report (while I still worry) Im a lot braver.

Plus Event Zero makes Chuck Norris look like a total wuss.

Next weekend is the premier showing of the "Semi Annual Regenthal Beer Fest and Grillout". Itll be as stellar as the other Semi Annual event I love (to see) at Vickie's Secret.

Sorry JPA, Ill try to do better. AMR, more crack soon!!

Twice the fun

So after three days at Castle Regenthal, Im having a great time. TWO hurricanes in the Atlantic Basin and I still cant remember my conversation with Event One (though it did happen and I think it went well.) First day of school - man. I remembered a piece that an comedienne from the 1980's named Elaine Boosler did. She'd say (paraphrased) "When I grew up Id hear that school bus pull up - Id half wake up and say "Hahahh theres no school today!" and roll right back over and go to sleep."

Thats just what I did today.

Hope all is well out there. I think Ill start back to the writing tomorrow. Two storms at once...wow.

"Wouldnt that be somethin?"

New Hurricane?

Look at the right hand side of your screen - the live feed from the National Hurricane Center shows a new hurricane (!) brewing. Still pretty far away - but seeing the cycle begins again always makes me smile downstairs. Yes, downstairs.

We shall see what we shall see. I wonder if Ill acquire the balls to contact Event One, because I still havent. I wonder if I will get to finish cleaning AMR's room this Monday. I wonder if I will get to see it rain this week. I wonder if I will call STM drunk one day - that one Im sure of.

Glad KG is back from the beach safe.

Quantifying When

In the past, but not too recently, I used to ask people close to me why they loved me. Usually I asked this to very close friends. The only reason I asked them is because, even now, I can pinpoint the exact reason (there are about a dozen or so) why I love the people I do. I haven't had much success in getting other people to tell me what I did that was so awesome to bring them into perpetual orbit in my life.

Im still haunted by the actions Ive had in my life in the past four years and the post BML has on his page. I have made it my life's work to keep people around when I turn around, it has worked out that I ran them all away. Some of them needed to go - and I needed to go too.

Let me say this. If you are with people you care about, and you start to feel uncomfortable around them because of what they do - as habit - get new friends. I dont mean like out of your comfort zone learning uncomfortable. Im talking making you feel either like a) their kid, b) the awkward bystander in their needless arguments, or c) question why you are they way you are rather than just accepting you for your goods and bads.

As I said before, I know Ive fucked up before - shit we all have. Take it or leave it I say. If I need to get left, so be it. Just like something ABS said the other day, "After making do with what I had over the past year, I can make it on anything."

Thanks a lot for all the following and reading. I have enjoyed hearing from all of you. Thanks for reading my drama and taking it in stride. If you see your initials here, dont fret. I love you too.

Past or Future - Both Matter.

Since MAB and I had our exchange, I have to say that most of what is on my mind has nothing to do with the past. This surprises me beyond expectation. I look forward to so many things - incoming storm fronts, Halloween, Friday Night Raids, meals (no shocker). Whenever I think of friends tho, it has been for as long as I can remember, how things were and never about how things will be. I have been fixated on how the past molds the future as if it were a concrete slab.

I have considerable difficulty moving beyond the fact that some people move on for good. Maybe they do. I got a note in my Facebook message box today...it has been in my mind since - and sitting here in my rainy day spot - since its really coming down - I have to say the external validation has arrived. Even though most of us have screwed up in the past, I am pretty sure that most people who read this consider themselves good friends. The kind of friends who listen and support even when they dont agree.

Maybe some people are just so afraid of the uncertainty of the future they prefer the security of analyzing the past. Making sure that whatever comes along, they are not destined to repeat the mistakes of days gone by. Theres value in that. I guess I just got paralyzed by it...I still am. At least now I can try to fix that issue.

Its almost time to write again. Dare to think about what that experience will be like. Heres to some more meterological motivation and more rain.

"The only thing dead at my party was the salisbury steak!"

For those of you who know me well, you know I just cant stop watching the old Match Game PM reruns on Game Show Network. SNL did a skit a couple years back and it still puts me in stitches.

http://www.hulu.com/watch/19687/saturday-night-live-its-a-match?c=Comedy/Sketch#s-p76-sr-i1

((about 1:15 in))

Just beyond funny. Thought Id drop it in since today has been full (of it.) of reflections and deep thoughts.

Reforming in the Gulf

The blog mentioned the remnants of Tropical Storm Colin dissipating over Louisiana last weekend. Guess what? After an odd move south, (see a couple blog posts back), it is about to redevelop. That LONG slow rain thats been missing all year may indeed make its way here, and none too soon.

If I can just settle on this rewrite, take less Xanax, and do the Wii fit once a day, this whole idea of tomorrow over yesterday may work. Tho, God knows, Im still gonna need a shit load of therapy. At least we get BBC America now and Doctor Who is back on Saturdays. Its really the little things...