I am blown away. Since I started writing, 1877 hits have been recorded on this page. I have no idea what everyone is doing looking here - this is simply an old, weird, stubborn, anxiety ridden screw up's place to vent on the web. What on earth would have promped 1877 hits since May? ALMOST freaky enough for me to stop posting, but hell...at this point...why would I?
Shifting gears, NEP told me a week or so ago that everyone makes mistakes and that there are people in this world who love me and worry about me. --deep exhale-- Of all the things Ive screwed up in the past, I wonder if absolution will ever come. I know I have to forgive myself for all my mistakes before anyone else can - if those apologies ever get made. On occasion, I wonder if I will turn out like my Dad did in the end; just before he died. I can remember him being riddled with guilt over things past and no idea what his future would hold. Im sure we all feel that way on occasion, but he didnt get over it.
If 1877 page views since May have been registered, that means that just 20 people look at this blog a day - which isnt too bad. There are a shit ton of people out there who couldnt count 20 friends from their whole lives...for that...Im blessed.
Part two of the Star Trek rant will come soon enough - man - I cannot get over just how unbelieveably bad bad bad that movie was. So much for reboots.
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